Wednesday, August 26, 2015


                I have often been asked if I could go back to a period in my life when would it be? My answer has always been the days that I spent in Port Arthur, Texas. And though I lived there only as a child, from birth to ten years of age, it was a time that I cherished most. People often say my reasoning is because in childhood there is innocence.  And, in innocence there is joy. But it is something more. Port Arthur was a small town that instilled in me a foundation of who I have become. It was like yesterday that I played in its streets feeling invincible.

                Often times, I feel fortunate to be born in a small town like Port Arthur. The small city was large enough to be put on the map, but small to enough to call home. What I remember most about it is how people knew their neighbors. When I say ‘knew' their neighbors, I do not mean it was a ‘hi’ or ‘bye’.  People conversed , ate, and played together.  They shared their troubled days and their good days. There was enjoyment in knowing your next door neighbors. We were all one big family trying to make it in little town America the best way we knew how. This feeling made me feel complacent as a child. I never felt lost in the crowd.

What was striking, too, in my memory of the day, was Port Arthur’s lay out.  The setting was like a scene right out of Huckleberry Fin.   It’s probably why I felt so readily connected to the children’s books I read. Homes had long porches to sit on in the evenings, a big yard to invite a neighbor to play baseball, and an alley running in the back of it. The gravel road connecting backyards was a place to be off the street and explore.  No one had fences. How many times had I gone back there to admire the beautiful back yards of my neighbors with their rose gardens, vegetable gardens, and flowered trees? How many times was I given the opportunity to take in the beauty of another’s work? And though neighbor’s yards were open to us, we all knew our limits. The alley was a public road. People’s back yards were not. Nevertheless, I always felt the maintained yards were kept up for me, too.  There was a pride in enjoying what the bigger family had.

I could never forget, too, the pecan trees that canopied my back yard. To me, as a child, their limbs reached the sky and provided the most splendid food a child could snack on. I remember being impatient for their meat, picking raw nuts and peeling them. The result was a green stain which tinted my hands for weeks.  But it was that green stain, once, that prevented a ruler slap on the hand from an incensed teacher. She must have felt sympathy for the little girl with the jade colored hands that could have easily been mistaken for a faded bruise.  Till this day, a green pecan can soar me back to the day, the place, and the incident. It will forever be a splendid memory within me.

And then there was the autumn gathering of the ripened ones.  The memory is so vivid as if it happened yesterday. My mother would lay a sheet beneath the trees, tap the limbs gently with a towering cane, and then it would be our turn. We would gather the pecans and put them in sacks. Later, she would use these pecans to make the best baklava in the world! How can I forget the taste of fresh pecans, sugar, with a touch of rose water rolled in crispy buttered phyllo dough that melted in my child mouth?  And though, it has been decades since that time, I still crave its taste. I can still smell its aroma.  The sights and the scents coming from my mother’s small kitchen will be forever imprinted delightfully in the spaces of my heart.

 And then there was Rose Hill Park. Within walking distance of my home, it was the most comforting spot a child could visit with their parent. The sprawling park had swing sets, baseball fields for minor league teams, a canal that a young person could sit upon granite rocks to watch the tug boats go by and a bridge to cross the other side. It was much later that I understood the historical background of that canal. Jean Lafitte, the French Pirate, was said to have traded there. And there are rumors of hidden treasures still there. The treasures that I received from the canal are all priceless memories. Bike riding near the canals road way, hearing ghost stories of lovers who drowned there and the childhood fears associated with it, rolling down the green hills  and dreaming. A child could forever daydream about the mysterious places the ships passing the canal sailed to. For a moment in time, they could be there. Yet, my most inspiring memory of Rose Hill Park was Rose Hill Manor, a historical gem sitting atop its grounds, adjacent to the canal.

Rose Hill Manor was a mansion built in 1906 by Rome Woodworth, who would later become the mayor of Port Arthur, and whose family, in 1948, would bequeath the estate to the people of the city. I always felt that the house, with its turn of the 20th century look, spiral staircase, wooden floors and old fashioned verandas, belonged to me. Wasn’t I one of them? And the lesson I learned from the estate givers was my ultimate treasure that I took from Rose Hill Park, and its entirety. A human’s legacy, I learned early on, lasted an eternity when it was shared with others. Mr. Woodworth and his family shared their home with others. Kindness and generosity are timeless characteristics. I will always be thankful for their fine gift. My fondest memories were from that gift.

And yes, it was my innocence that made me love those days. I was innocent to the truths in life.  I had yet to concern over, who I was or what role I was to play in life.  I had yet to care about, my looks or imperfections. I had yet to worry about life other than what was inside my street, my little town that I belonged to. Life was simple then. Living in Port Arthur made more simple.  That moment in time will always be a place of my most wonderful memories.  It set the foundation for who I’ve become. I will never be one to be lost in the crowd.   
 
                               (Rose Hill Manor)        

Monday, August 10, 2015


           Every day it comes to my mind to be thankful; appreciative that I’ve filled another table with food; gracious it’s another day that I did not have to worry where my next meal would come from; and elated that I was born and raised in a rich country that has given me this opportunity. But there is another part of me that is guilty. While I eat plentiful in my developed country, across the world in an underdeveloped nation, people are starving to death. And it makes me wonder how in the 21st century this takes place with scarcely a notice, day after day after day.

            In my novel, The Sands of Kedar, I write about a time period where one of the reasons infant girls were buried alive in the sand was because parents feared the burden of feeding them. They were considered a nuisance in the desert terrain. Yet, this took place over a thousand years ago. It was a different time, a different world, and a different period. Today, we are more wary of our world than people were a millennium ago. The internet has lessened the space of our world. Few things remain unhidden for long. The happenings of another country can only be clicks away. The world is our neighbor, which is why we must all feel guilty.

            According to the EPA, Americans throw away 35,000,000 tons of food away every year. This takes place while 1 in every 9 people in the world suffers from chronic hunger. This is so while pictures of starving African children are plastered all over the internet. Too, every year Americans throw away so much food that the EPA feels it is poisoning the earth. Organic food produces methane gas. Methane gas is twenty times more toxic than carbon dioxide. And, wasting food costs Americans thousands of dollars each year.  The question is, what will it take to make a change, especially when a change is necessary?

            I really hate throwing food away. I’d rather give it away. But the abundance of it in America makes it accessible. And accessible means it is taken for grant it. Super markets are everywhere. And so, we grab and grab and grab without much thought.

            I believe that education is the key to the problem. Americans need to be taught how to shop, how to cook, how to save, and even how to share. It is unimaginable the gain in reducing unnecessary waste. The benefit is mind boggling. These words, alone, make it worth giving thought to.